This is a tough one for me, as a daughter of an alcoholic who spent decades angry over a socially acceptable substance that altered my relationship with my Dad.
I didn't truly start to understand the connection between trauma, ACE scores, and addiction until 2017/2018.
The more I worked with children with complex cases, the more I started to connect the dots.When my dad passed in my arms, it altered who I was. The hate disapaited as I surrounded him wish as much love as I possible could.
Dad and I were kindred spirits. Almost too identical at times.I understand now that alcohol was a coping mechanism.
Coping mechanisms from shame/guilt/pain.This is why I bring awareness to addictions as much as possible, not only about alcohol use but any coping mechanisms done in excess to mask the pain (drugs, work, exercise, eating, sex, gambling...)
I also speak up about my disappointment of having writing in a psyc assessment with a tone of ridicule and judgement of my personal choice to be sober not only from alcohol but from RX pills.
I know my purpose will unfold...my voice will be heard.
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